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Dealing with the emotion of losing friends is a task no less than torture, especially, in case of a close friend. A friend taken away from you, either due to death, distance or because of a misunderstanding makes for one of the hardest moments in our lives. The bonds that you shared, the things you all did together, the games you played, the secrets you shared…All that comes to haunt you and leaves you weak

I’m sorry for always letting you down, not being the person you were looking for, I’m sorry for the tears, the hurt. I wish I was good enough to be called your bestfriend you were always good to me always had me smiling, laughing. You made things okay when it wasn’t. I don’t want to hurt you no more the pain I am feeling is nothing I’ve ever felt before I just want you to tell me everything you think. I don’t want to leave but what I feel from you I feel like its my time to let go because you don’t need me no more

What goes through your mind when I say “i can’t do it anymore” what do you feel? Does it hurt? Does it bother you? What do you do? Why won’t you just talk to me why leave words unsaid I only walk away because I feel like it’s just a joke to you

There’s day I don’t want to be here days I want to just end it and go away from my pain but people don’t know how depressed I really am I could careless if tomorrow was my last day I just wish I could leave easy and painless my friends think I’m so happy and out going but they don’t see me behind close doors and I’m scared if they did they won’t ever look at me the same I just want everything to be over with

Out of everyone you were never the one to judge me on my past never the one to look at me any different you truly did love me for who I am you weren’t the one that screwed up I was I walked away before I got the chance to see you really did mean it when you said you loved me and cared I was so scared that everything you said you didn’t mean so I let go and I regret it I’m sorry for the bullshit, I’m sorry for the tears I just don’t want to lose you…I need you in my life

You know that feeling where you notice the person you love the most and care for is leaving slowly and making their way through your life you wish you could hold on to them forever and not have to go through the pain of losing them so you let go before they do because your scared of what’s to come and scared they won’t ever care for you like they use to it hurts more then anything thinking that way and sometimes you end up hurting more